The Three Problems You Keep Ignoring (and the One Community We’re Still Building)

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🖋 SWANK Dispatch | 23 November 2024

“We’re Not Liars. We Just Can’t Breathe.”
Filed Under: Clinical Gaslighting · Asthma Stigma · Verbal Coercion · Medical Torture · Social Rejection · SWANK London Ltd

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Dear Kirsty,

Let me enumerate—since institutional minds require bullet points to recognise lived experience:

1. The defensive posture of hospital staff.

2. Their refusal to follow respiratory protocol.

3. The insinuation that needing to breathe must be performed, proven, or denied.

You wanted “safeguarding.”
I gave you oxygen.
You asked for history, then punished it mid-sentence.

“Dr Arjumand said: I don’t believe you.”
Several times. With intent.

And just like that: my lungs collapsed.
My recovery reversed.
You took improvement and turned it into procedural injury.

This is not personal grievance.
It is generational. Institutional. Coded into the architecture of disbelief.

I have lived this disbelief in schools, universities, and workplaces.
Now my children inherit it in hospitals.

When they don’t “perform” asthma, they are shamed.
When I advocate, I am framed.

“We don’t want to be social with regular people.”
“We want to be social with other people who have asthma. Very bad asthma like ours.”

That’s not alienation. That’s respiratory refuge.
The world that demands effortless breathing has no place for us.

You call it isolation.
We call it selective inclusion.

“Deaf people have deaf friends. Blind people have blind friends.”

And asthmatics?
We form alliances built on shared air, not shallow pleasantries.
We socialise through oxygen fluency—not forced integration.

I breastfed all four of them hoping they’d escape this fate.
They didn’t. But they gained something else: sovereignty.

So no, we won’t argue for our right to breathe.
We’ll document your disbelief.
And exhale our resistance into the record.

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📍 Not Broken. Not Lying. Just Done Explaining.
Polly Chromatic
Founding Archivist, Oxygen Sovereignty Collective
✉ director@swanklondon.com
🌐 www.swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Disbeliefs Rejected.

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Socialising Is Not a Crime—Asthma Is Not a Sin

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🖋 SWANK Dispatch | 23 November 2024

“We Moved Here to Breathe, Not to Be Blamed for It”
Filed Under: Asthma Stigma · Cultural Displacement · Institutional Suspicion · Social Exclusion · SWANK London Ltd

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Dear Kirsty,

“We felt isolated in Turks and Caicos and came here because we love the people and socialising…”

We did not arrive in Britain looking for handouts.
We came seeking kinship — in breath, in conversation, in care.

“However, people here don’t like that we have asthma.”

As if a respiratory condition were a social offense.
As if needing air meant forfeiting belonging.

“It’s like you are all angry at us for having asthma. That’s how we feel.”

And in this house, feelings are not anecdotes — they are evidence.
A long data trail of:
– blank stares when we ask for help
– withheld empathy
– and silence when your policies fail us

This is not a cry for inclusion.
It is a record of administrative aversion dressed as neutrality.

“(But we feel better now that you are all helping.)”

Hope. Noted. But qualified.
Because assistance without stability is not care.
It’s crisis management with manners.

If help evaporates at the first boundary, it was never real.

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📍 Filed on Behalf of All Uninvited From Their Own Lungs
Polly Chromatic
Asthmatic Witness · Displaced Care-Seeker · Misread Visitor
✉ director@swanklondon.com
🌐 www.swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Rejections Remembered.

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The Hospital That Bullied Me for Needing Oxygen

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🖋 SWANK Dispatch | 24 November 2024

“You Called It ‘Erratic.’ I Call It Trying to Breathe.”
Filed Under: A&E Abuse · Disability Gaslighting · NHS Denial · Child Medical Neglect · SWANK London Ltd

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Dear Kirsty,

“Yes, the hospital’s perspective is what I’ve been asking about for an entire year.”

And in that year, they’ve offered no clarity—only euphemism and blame.
The word they reached for? “Erratic.”

Let us correct the record:

What you call erratic in a disabled woman is in fact:

• A refusal to argue with people trained to disbelieve

• A choice not to waste oxygen on provocation

• A quiet exit from a place that provides harm instead of help

This is not behavioural. It is respiratory.

“When a woman in the waiting area was abusing me, they blamed me for that.”

Because in the A&E caste system, the asthmatic mother who doesn’t speak is always guilty.
St Thomas. St Mary’s. Chelsea and Westminster.
Change the badge, not the behaviour.

And now?

“All the hospitals refuse to treat my kids more than they refuse to treat me.”

That’s not a fluke.
It is intergenerational cruelty administered in NHS lanyards.

“I’m going to sue them. It’s child neglect.”

Correct. And it will be framed not as anecdote, but as state-enabled malice—
documented, cross-referenced, and submitted with receipts.

“I do not waste my time arguing with people.”
“I simply document it online and move on.”

That is not evasion. That is litigation choreography.

You do not get to debate this.
You get archived.

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📍 Filed Without Breath. Posted Without Permission.
Polly Chromatic
Archival Mother · NHS Witness · Legal Storm-In-Waiting
✉ director@swanklondon.com
🌐 www.swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Hostilities Recorded.

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I Don’t Argue. I Archive.

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🖋 SWANK Dispatch | 24 November 2024

“The Hospitals Refuse to Breathe With Us”

Filed Under: A&E Bullying · Medical Gaslighting · Child Neglect by Refusal · Verbal Abuse by Protocol · NHS Ignorance · SWANK London Ltd

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Dear Kirsty,

“Yes, the hospital’s perspective is what I’ve been asking about for an entire year.”

And still, no reply. Because there is no perspective—only projection.

“No one will tell me what the ‘erratic’ behaviour was…”

Let me tell you what’s erratic:
Refusing to treat a woman with asthma because she can’t argue back.
Blaming her for being abused in your waiting rooms.
Treating her children with even less compassion than you afford her.

“That wasn’t the same hospital. That was St Thomas. This was St Mary’s.”

And yet… the cruelty is identical.
The oxygen denial is choreographed.

“I’m going to sue them. It’s child neglect.”

Yes. And medical misconduct. And procedural sabotage.

Because I do not scream.
I do not shout.

I document.
And I move legal systems with receipts, not rage.

“They either want to help or they don’t. It’s that simple.”
“If they don’t want to help, I document it online and move on.”

This is not a tantrum.
This is record-keeping in a hostile state.

I do not owe you performance.
I owe my children protection.

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📍 Filed Post-Bullying, Pre-Litigation
Polly Chromatic, Verbal Refusal Archivist & NHS Historian-in-Residence
✉ director@swanklondon.com
🌐 www.swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Erasures Exposed.

You Don’t Want Me to Join. You Want Me to Perform.

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🖋 SWANK Dispatch | 24 November 2024

“Socialising Was the Dream. Silencing Was the Reality.”

Filed Under: Communication Refusal · Social Exclusion · Email Silencing · Asthma Stigma · Diagnostic Isolation · SWANK London Ltd

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Dear Kirsty,

This dispatch comes not as a plea for inclusion, but as a coronation of fact.

“We came here because we love the people and socialising…”
“…but people here don’t like that we have asthma.”

Not metaphorically. Not figuratively. Literally.
You are offended by oxygen.

“I can’t speak in person verbally enough to explain all of this…”
“…so I am confused as to how to communicate with anyone if no one wants to read my emails.”

And there it is: the institutional cruelty of verbal gatekeeping.
When the medium becomes the barrier.
When your refusal to accommodate becomes a policy of disappearance.

You say I can’t speak.
You ignore me when I write.
You respond with: “Please don’t include us anymore.”

That is not a boundary.
That is a bureaucratic ghosting protocol dressed as professionalism.

You’ve not declined communication.
You’ve declined accountability—via Outlook.

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📍 Declined by System. Validated by Archive.
Polly Chromatic, Sovereign of Sovereign Communications, Former Believer in Inclusion
✉ director@swanklondon.com
🌐 www.swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Attempts Logged. All Silences Noted.