“Though the Witch knew the Deep Magic, there is a magic deeper still which she did not know. Her knowledge goes back only to the dawn of time. But if she could have looked a little further back… she would have known that when a willing victim who had committed no treachery was killed in a traitor’s stead, the Table would crack and Death itself would start working backward.” - Aslan, C.S. Lewis, The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe
Showing posts with label panic disorder. Show all posts
Showing posts with label panic disorder. Show all posts

Muscle Tension Dysphonia, Asthma, and the Cost of Being Dismissed



๐Ÿ–‹ ๐’ฎ๐’ฒ๐’œ๐’ฉ๐’ฆ Dispatch | 12 January 2025
VOCAL REST IS NOT DEFIANCE. IT’S SURVIVAL.

๐Ÿ“ Filed From: Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
✒️ Author: Polly Chromatic
๐Ÿ—‚ Filed Under: Invisible Illness · Vocal Rest Protocol · Judicial Panic Triggers · Respiratory Collapse · Institutional Gaslighting · SWANK Medical Silence Report


To the Unqualified Interpreters of Medical Silence:

Glen Peache, Sarah Newman, Eric Wedge-Bull, Kirsty Hornal, Rhiannon Hodgson, Fiona Dias-Saxena, Rachel Pullen, Milena Abdula-Gomes, Samira Issa, Gideon Mpalanyi
Cc: aaforbes@gov.tcalsmith@gov.tc, Annabelle Kapoor, Laura Savage, Simon O’Meara, Harley Street Mental Health, Philip Reid
Bcc: Nannette Nicholson


๐Ÿ”‡ THE BODY DOESN’T LIE. THE SYSTEM JUST DOESN’T LISTEN.

“I’m really struggling with my muscle dysphonia, eosinophilic asthma, and panic attacks…”

What you interpret as avoidance is actually triage.
When my lungs tighten, when my voice collapses, it is not a choice.
It is the by-product of your clinical negligence, your procedural hostility, and your smug refusal to read.


⚖ COURTROOMS, COUGHING, AND COLLAPSE

“Stressful situations… court appearances, hostile behavior, and misunderstandings… make it almost impossible to communicate…”

You have engineered a legal gauntlet that punishes respiratory compromise.
You escalate, then pathologise the symptoms you cause.
This isn’t “support.” This is litigated harm.


๐Ÿ“‰ STOP EXPECTING A VOICE FROM A SYSTEM YOU SILENCED

“I often feel dismissed and not taken seriously…”

Indeed. Because your allegiance is not to health. It is to hierarchy.
You don’t want participation—you want performance.
And when I fail to deliver a theatrical monologue under duress, you label me the problem.

I am not difficult. I am disabled.
And your disbelief has been archived.


Polly Chromatic
Diagnosed. Dismissed. Documented.
๐Ÿ“ Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
๐ŸŒ www.swankarchive.com
๐Ÿ“ง director@swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Silences Filed.



Why My Body Literally Rebels When You Enter the Room.



๐Ÿ–‹ ๐’ฎ๐’ฒ๐’œ๐’ฉ๐’ฆ Dispatch | 2 February 2025
ON THE PATHOLOGY OF IRRESPONSIBILITY: AN IMMUNOLOGICAL RESPONSE

๐Ÿ“ Filed From: Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
✒️ Author: Polly Chromatic
๐Ÿ—‚ Filed Under: Asthma Trigger Documentation · Social Worker Aversion Reflex · Bureaucratic Panic Induction · Irresponsibility Syndrome · SWANK Behavioural Pathogen Memo


To:

Kirsty Hornal, Philip Reid, Laura Savage, Simon O'Meara, Fiona Dias-Saxena, Sarah Newman, Gideon Mpalanyi, Rachel Pullen, Eric Wedge-Bull, Rhiannon Hodgson, Milena Abdula-Gomes, Annabelle Kapoor, Samira Issa, Glen Peache
Cc: alsmith@gov.tcaaforbes@gov.tc, Nannette Nicholson
Bcc: Documented on the astral plane.


๐Ÿงช THE MOST DANGEROUS VIRUS I KNOW: IRRESPONSIBILITY

“Social workers are the most consistently irresponsible group of people I’ve ever met.”

Not undertrained.
Not underpaid.
Irresponsible—willfully, institutionally, and without consequence.
Where others bring professionalism, you bring a pathogen.


๐Ÿ˜ค PHYSIOLOGICAL OUTCOME: ASTHMA. PANIC. DISGUST.

“The lack of accountability and the pervasive irresponsibility cause me asthma attacks and panic attacks.”

This isn’t metaphor.
This is a medical reaction.
Your visits, your delays, your bureaucratic theatre—all of it lands in my lungs.
You are not “providing care.”
You are a walking aerosol of neglect.


๐Ÿšซ THIS IS A BOUNDARY. NOT A REQUEST.

“I’m tired of being forced to have these irresponsible people in my home and in my life.”

If your presence makes me sick, your absence is treatment.
I don’t need support. I need quarantine—from you.


๐Ÿ“Ž ADDENDUM: I DO NOT SPEAK. I DO NOT PHONE. I WILL NOT REPEAT.

“Please note: I cannot speak verbally. Please email only. I do not own a phone.”

It’s not a preference.
It’s an adjustment.
And if you can’t handle typing, you’re unfit to safeguard anyone—especially the chronically unheard.


Polly Chromatic
Allergic to misconduct. Unvaccinated against bureaucratic ineptitude.
๐Ÿ“ Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
๐ŸŒ www.swankarchive.com
๐Ÿ“ง director@swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Symptoms Recorded.



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