“Though the Witch knew the Deep Magic, there is a magic deeper still which she did not know. Her knowledge goes back only to the dawn of time. But if she could have looked a little further back… she would have known that when a willing victim who had committed no treachery was killed in a traitor’s stead, the Table would crack and Death itself would start working backward.” - Aslan, C.S. Lewis, The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe

Documented Obsessions

When the Voice Breaks, But the Story Must Go On.



๐Ÿ–‹ SWANK Dispatch | 6 February 2025
๐“Ÿ๐“ช๐“ฝ๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ท๐“ผ ๐“ธ๐“ฏ ๐“œ๐“พ๐“ผ๐“ฌ๐“ต๐“ฎ ๐“ฃ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ผ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท ๐““๐”‚๐“ผ๐“น๐“ฑ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ฒ๐“ช: ๐“ ๐““๐“ฒ๐“ผ๐“ผ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ฝ๐“ช๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท ๐“ฒ๐“ท ๐“ฅ๐“ธ๐“ฒ๐“ฌ๐“ฎ ๐“‘๐“ป๐“พ๐“ฒ๐“ผ๐“ฎ๐“ผ

Filed From: Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
Author: Polly Chromatic
Filed Under: Vocal Decompensation · Bureaucratic Brutality · Telepathic Imperatives · Laryngeal Protest · SWANK Medical Dossier


To:

Glen Peache, Sarah Newman, Eric Wedge-Bull, Kirsty Hornal, Rhiannon Hodgson, Fiona Dias-Saxena, Rachel Pullen, Milena Abdula-Gomes, Samira Issa
Cc: Annabelle Kapoor, aaforbes@gov.tcalsmith@gov.tc
Bcc: Laura Savage, Simon O’Meara, Philip Reid, Gideon Mpalanyi, Nannette Nicholson


I. ๐’ฏ๐’ฝ๐‘’ ๐ท๐’พ๐’ถ๐‘”๐“ƒ๐‘œ๐“ˆ๐’พ๐“ˆ ๐“Ž๐‘œ๐“Š ๐“Œ๐‘œ๐“Š๐“๐’น ๐“‡๐’ถ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’๐“‡ ๐“ˆ๐“Š๐“ˆ๐“…๐‘’๐“ƒ๐’น ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐’ถ๐“ƒ ๐“‡๐‘’๐’ธ๐‘œ๐‘”๐“ƒ๐’พ๐“ˆ๐‘’:

Muscle Tension Dysphonia is not a mood. It is not a lifestyle. It is the anatomical revolt of a voice forced to perform under duress. A laryngeal rebellion, provoked by systems which demand oration but deny support. You do not cure it with encouragement. You honour it with silence.


II. ๐’ฎ๐“Ž๐“‚๐“…๐“‰๐‘œ๐“‚๐’ถ๐“‰๐’พ๐’ธ ๐’ฎ๐‘œ๐“‹๐‘’๐“‡๐‘’๐’พ๐‘”๐“ƒ๐“‰๐“Ž

  • Vocal Decay: Tones become strained, breathy, weary—like a violin strung with wire.

  • Fatigue: Conversation becomes a cardiovascular hazard.

  • Somatic Protest: Neck, shoulders, and psyche tense in unison.

  • Verbal Overdrive: A voice pushed to compensate until it collapses.

  • Triggers: Phones. Panels. Patronising professionals.

  • Stress Overlay: Institutional aggression disguised as concern.

  • Maladaptive Loops: The more you push, the worse it performs.


III. ๐’ž๐’ถ๐“Š๐“ˆ๐’ถ๐“‰๐’พ๐‘œ๐“ƒ ๐’ท๐“Ž ๐’Ÿ๐‘’๐“ˆ๐’พ๐‘”๐“ƒ

This is not simply medical.
It is political.
It is the bodily consequence of being refused written adjustments by individuals whose own speech is weaponised with impunity.


IV. ๐’ฏ๐“‡๐‘’๐’ถ๐“‰๐“‚๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“‰ ๐’ท๐“Ž ๐’ฎ๐“‰๐“Ž๐“๐‘’:

  • Laryngeal Physiotherapy: For throats more bruised than believed.

  • Telepathic Correspondence: For minds unfit for telephone.

  • Hydration & Isolation: Remove irritants and imbeciles.

  • Posture & Poise: Sit upright. Speak rarely. Archive everything.

  • Legal Recognition: You do not need to shout to be heard in law.


V. ๐’ž๐‘œ๐“ƒ๐’ธ๐“๐“Š๐“ˆ๐’พ๐‘œ๐“ƒ: ๐’œ ๐’ฎ๐’ฝ๐’ถ๐“‡๐“… ๐’ฉ๐‘œ๐“‰๐‘’ ๐’พ๐“ƒ ๐’ถ ๐’ฎ๐’พ๐“๐‘’๐“ƒ๐“‰ ๐’ž๐’ฝ๐‘œ๐“‡๐’ถ๐“

This is a disability.
This is a refusal to tolerate your disbelief.
This is what happens when words become wounds.

If you want conversation, earn it with compliance.
Until then, I whisper. I archive. I sue.


Polly Chromatic
Her voice, your record.
๐’Ÿ๐’พ๐“‡๐‘’๐’ธ๐“‰๐‘œ๐“‡, SWANK London Ltd
๐Ÿ“ Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
๐ŸŒ www.swankarchive.com
๐Ÿ“ง director@swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Reverberations Filed.



When The Voice Breaks, But The Story Must Still Be Told.



๐Ÿ–‹ ๐’ฎ๐’ฒ๐’œ๐’ฉ๐’ฆ Dispatch | 10 January 2025
THE UNSEEN BURDEN: MUSCLE TENSION DYSPHONIA IN THE MIDST OF HARASSMENT

๐Ÿ“ Filed From: Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
✒️ Author: Polly Chromatic
๐Ÿ—‚ Filed Under: Muscle Tension Dysphonia · Vocal Strain · Stress-Induced Voice Disorders · Speech Therapy Needs · Psychosocial Impact · SWANK Medical Dossier


To the Institutions Mistaking Silence for Consent:

Glen Peache, Sarah Newman, Eric Wedge-Bull, Kirsty Hornal, Rhiannon Hodgson, Fiona Dias-Saxena, Rachel Pullen, Milena Abdula-Gomes, Samira Issa
Cc: aaforbes@gov.tcalsmith@gov.tc, Annabelle Kapoor
Bcc: Laura Savage, Simon O’Meara, Philip Reid, Gideon Mpalanyi, Nannette Nicholson


๐Ÿ—ฃ WHEN THE BODY SAYS “NO” AND NO ONE LISTENS

Muscle Tension Dysphonia (MTD) is not theatrical.
It is not convenient.
It is a diagnosed medical condition resulting from excessive laryngeal tension, often provoked—and prolonged—by forced verbal compliance under psychosocial duress.


๐Ÿ” CLINICAL PATTERNS YOU'VE CONSISTENTLY OVERLOOKED

– Strained, hoarse, or breathy voice—misread as emotional volatility
– Physical tension in neck, shoulders, and throat—dismissed as “behavioural”
– Vocal fatigue from effortful speaking—ignored because I did not scream
– Triggers: forced phone calls, public hostility, demand for “meetings”
– Feedback loop: stress → vocal dysfunction → institutional misinterpretation → further stress


๐Ÿ›  PRESCRIBED, IGNORED, AND STILL NEEDED

– Voice therapy: relaxation, proper breath support
– Stress reduction: counselling, non-hostile environments
– Postural awareness: ergonomics for breathing ease
– Hydration and vocal hygiene: simple, overlooked, essential
– Medical treatment: for reflux and inflammation where relevant


๐ŸŽญ CONTEXT: FORCED VERBALISM AS A FORM OF ABUSE

Let us not pretend this is coincidental.
When social workers insist on verbal meetings despite medical documentation,
when state agents weaponise a mother’s vocal limitations as proof of unfitness—
they are not safeguarding. They are enacting procedural cruelty.


Polly Chromatic
Whispering truth through strained vocal cords, with dignity and court receipts.
๐Ÿ“ Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
๐ŸŒ www.swankarchive.com
๐Ÿ“ง director@swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Tensions Recorded. All Harm Archived.





Ten Years of Saying the Same Thing, and Still No One Listens.



๐Ÿ–‹ ๐’ฎ๐’ฒ๐’œ๐’ฉ๐’ฆ Dispatch | 10 January 2025
MISUNDERSTANDINGS? NO, WILLFUL IGNORANCE.
Also titled: “Ten Years of Saying the Same Thing, and Still No One Listens.”

๐Ÿ“ Filed From: Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
✒️ Author: Polly Chromatic
๐Ÿ—‚ Filed Under: Communication Breakdown · Panic Attacks · Institutional Neglect · Email Ignorance · Social Worker Defiance · Mental Health Crisis · SWANK Chronic Distress Log


To the Selectively Illiterate:

Glen Peache, Sarah Newman, Eric Wedge-Bull, Kirsty Hornal, Rhiannon Hodgson, Fiona Dias-Saxena, Rachel Pullen, Milena Abdula-Gomes, Samira Issa
Cc: aaforbes@gov.tcalsmith@gov.tc, Annabelle Kapoor
Bcc: Laura Savage, Simon O’Meara, Philip Reid, Gideon Mpalanyi, Nannette Nicholson


๐Ÿ“ฉ THE EMAILS THAT CAUSED A CRISIS—BECAUSE YOU REFUSED TO READ

“The refusal of humans to read my emails and/or not take me seriously is causing me panic attacks since it’s the only way I can communicate.”
“I don’t know how else to explain it. I’ve been saying the same thing for ten years and no one wants to read or listen.”

This is not ambiguity. This is documentation.
This is not emotional instability. It’s institutional cruelty disguised as procedure.


๐Ÿง  TRANSLATION FOR THE PROFESSIONALY HARD-OF-READING:

– Written communication is not optional for disabled people.
– Ignoring it is not minor. It is medical malpractice.
– Panic attacks are not personality flaws. They are evidence of your failure.

You are not misunderstood. You are unfit.


⚠️ THIS IS A CRISIS, NOT A QUIBBLE

The refusal to accommodate written communication for a disabled mother is not just a bureaucratic blunder.
It is neglect, cloaked in procedure.
It is discrimination, typed in Times New Roman.
It is violence, filed as “no reply necessary.”


Polly Chromatic
Typing to be heard. Fighting to breathe. Archiving to outlast.
๐Ÿ“ Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
๐ŸŒ www.swankarchive.com
๐Ÿ“ง director@swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Distress Logged. All Excuses Rejected.



Muscle Tension Dysphonia, Asthma, and the Cost of Being Dismissed



๐Ÿ–‹ ๐’ฎ๐’ฒ๐’œ๐’ฉ๐’ฆ Dispatch | 12 January 2025
VOCAL REST IS NOT DEFIANCE. IT’S SURVIVAL.

๐Ÿ“ Filed From: Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
✒️ Author: Polly Chromatic
๐Ÿ—‚ Filed Under: Invisible Illness · Vocal Rest Protocol · Judicial Panic Triggers · Respiratory Collapse · Institutional Gaslighting · SWANK Medical Silence Report


To the Unqualified Interpreters of Medical Silence:

Glen Peache, Sarah Newman, Eric Wedge-Bull, Kirsty Hornal, Rhiannon Hodgson, Fiona Dias-Saxena, Rachel Pullen, Milena Abdula-Gomes, Samira Issa, Gideon Mpalanyi
Cc: aaforbes@gov.tcalsmith@gov.tc, Annabelle Kapoor, Laura Savage, Simon O’Meara, Harley Street Mental Health, Philip Reid
Bcc: Nannette Nicholson


๐Ÿ”‡ THE BODY DOESN’T LIE. THE SYSTEM JUST DOESN’T LISTEN.

“I’m really struggling with my muscle dysphonia, eosinophilic asthma, and panic attacks…”

What you interpret as avoidance is actually triage.
When my lungs tighten, when my voice collapses, it is not a choice.
It is the by-product of your clinical negligence, your procedural hostility, and your smug refusal to read.


⚖ COURTROOMS, COUGHING, AND COLLAPSE

“Stressful situations… court appearances, hostile behavior, and misunderstandings… make it almost impossible to communicate…”

You have engineered a legal gauntlet that punishes respiratory compromise.
You escalate, then pathologise the symptoms you cause.
This isn’t “support.” This is litigated harm.


๐Ÿ“‰ STOP EXPECTING A VOICE FROM A SYSTEM YOU SILENCED

“I often feel dismissed and not taken seriously…”

Indeed. Because your allegiance is not to health. It is to hierarchy.
You don’t want participation—you want performance.
And when I fail to deliver a theatrical monologue under duress, you label me the problem.

I am not difficult. I am disabled.
And your disbelief has been archived.


Polly Chromatic
Diagnosed. Dismissed. Documented.
๐Ÿ“ Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
๐ŸŒ www.swankarchive.com
๐Ÿ“ง director@swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Silences Filed.



If I Could Speak to You, I Wouldn't Be Writing This



๐Ÿ–‹ ๐’ฎ๐’ฒ๐’œ๐’ฉ๐’ฆ Dispatch | 12 January 2025
EXHAUSTION IS A MEDICAL CONDITION, NOT A CHARACTER FLAW

๐Ÿ“ Filed From: Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
✒️ Author: Polly Chromatic
๐Ÿ—‚ Filed Under: Muscle Tension Dysphonia · Eosinophilic Asthma · Panic Disorder · Verbal Access Denied · Invisible Illness Prejudice · SWANK Medical Boundaries Archive


To the Recipients of My Silence:

Glen Peache, Sarah Newman, Eric Wedge-Bull, Kirsty Hornal, Rhiannon Hodgson, Fiona Dias-Saxena, Rachel Pullen, Milena Abdula-Gomes, Samira Issa, Philip Reid, Gideon Mpalanyi
Cc: aaforbes@gov.tcalsmith@gov.tc, Annabelle Kapoor, Laura Savage, Simon O’Meara, Harley Street Mental Health
Bcc: Nannette Nicholson


๐Ÿซ The Diagnoses You Glance At But Never Grasp

“I’m really struggling with my muscle dysphonia, eosinophilic asthma, and panic attacks…”

These are not feelings. They are documented, indexed, and clinically observed medical realities.
But to you, exhaustion is an attitude, not a pathology. Vocal injury is “tone.” Asthma is “stress.”
And trauma? Something you perform seminars on while triggering it live.


๐Ÿ”‡ Vocal Rest Is Not a Mood. It Is a Prescription.

“...sometimes taking over a week to recover enough to talk and breathe comfortably again.”

Silence is not opposition. It is triage.
If you require breathlessness to prove I’m ill, you are neither a professional nor a person worth speaking to.


๐Ÿง  You Call It Drama. I Call It Documentation.

“The hostility or blame from others only makes everything worse.”

This is not non-compliance. This is diagnosed physiological collapse misread as defiance.
And the more you demand verbal performance, the further you expose your own diagnostic illiteracy.

You want compliance? Try competence.


Polly Chromatic
Unheard. Unmoved. Unapologetically Unavailable.
๐Ÿ“ Flat 22, 2 Periwinkle Gardens, London W2
๐ŸŒ www.swankarchive.com
๐Ÿ“ง director@swanklondon.com
© SWANK London Ltd. All Breaths Withheld.